Ok so I have debated this thoroughly with myself, and I've decided to blog more, on the condition that I blindly lie and tell myself that I have a very large fan base, and they feverishly await my future ramblings. that said, I find that I have several things to say is this bloggie. (I often make up terms for things, so appease me and go with it).  Lately, I've been noticing that tons of people have Tumblrs. I'm debating whether or not to switch. But thats not what this blog is about. Scratch that, i want to call them entries. Ok so this ENTRY, is about literature, and more importantly, how beautiful it is. Earlier tonight, like so many before it, I was on facebook (don't judge me, your all guilty of it) and someone posted something that reminded me of Twilight, which made me go to Barnes and Noble's site. From there, I spend the next hour reading book synopsises, i think thats a word, and relishing in the greatness that are these authors. Now to clarify, I'm not talking about the classics or any intense stuff, which i do love, Shakespeare is my boy; these authors guided me through my preteen years and awkward ugly ducklings stages. Oddly enough, most of these authors are women. And it got me to thinking, how amazing it would be to craft words into worlds and stories and adventures for a living. For a long time, i toyed with the idea of becoming a publisher or author, but I do love movies more. I think its the visual aspect, like having my dreams ignited by the sun and exposed for the world to see. I don't think they should be limited to the page of a book. Mmmm thats not it, because plenty of stories would never work as books. I think its more of a balance. I do believe one day, that I will publish a book. Ok I have it now, I'd say that some stories are to pure for the big silver screen. And if you don't know what I'm talking about then i simply can't explain it to you any better. But on the other hand, i find such joy when i see an amazing book turned into a film. Its a very complicated matter with me, and makes up most of my being, for you peer both into my soul and heart with words. I will leave you bloggiers (sounded like pioneers) with a list of must read books, hopefully they will guide you as they guided me:

1. Star Girl -Jerry Spinelli (this is my most favorite of all time, it leaves me speechless)
2. The 5th of March- Ann Rinaldi (this woman is my hero)
3. The big Empty series -J.B. Stephens
4. The Hunger Games- Suzanne Collins (so odd, but yet so right)
5. Twilight -Stephenie Meyers (obviously)
6. Catcher in the Rye - J.D. Salinger (a brilliant book)
7. East of Eden- John Steinbeck
8. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen (OMG don't even get me started, i wish time travel was possible to meet this woman)


OK and since Movies are  a  part of this: (my favorites right now, they periodically change)
1. Shakespeare in Love (I cry every time)
2. The holiday
3. Green Street Hooligans (so awesome in the worst way)
4. Across the Universe
5. Titanic
6. The Resident Evil movies (so bad ass)
7. Stranger than Fiction (so amazing, in a simple way)
8. My Sassy Girl (possibly one of my top 5)
9. American History X
10. Forgetting Sarah Marshall (I dont know why, but i could watch this movie over and over and laugh every time. comdeic genius)

I have this obsession with love songs. I know that for a 19 year old girl this might be typical, but I find myself listening to these songs and writing down lines everywhere: notebooks, my phone, occasionally even my hand. Love in general fascinates me I guess. Growing up, watching all these movies, listening to proclamations and confessions of earth shattering love, its not the issue of whether I question if its out there, its a question of do I, along with every other person out there, have the chance to find it. Now I'm not talking about your ordinary love people, I'm talking about loss of sleep, difficulty breathing, life changing soul-mate stuff. I guess in the words of Taylor Swift, I'm waiting for my prince charming. But since this is my first blog, which by the way- I'm still trying to figure out how i convinced myself to spill my guts out to the world on the internet- I think its only fair if I share a few things about my life. I'm in my first year of college, and i feel like I've done enough emotional growing in the past year to last for a long time! This part of life is incredibly strange, I can't really describe it other than maybe its like I'm coming into my own. I know what i want for the first time in forever, and its not the "I'm saying this so I don't have to say I have no plan", its a legitimate "I want to strive to be great at this for the rest of my life" kind of thing. Im starting to fathom what it takes to become an adult and the amount of work life requires-and it scares and excites the shiz out of me. hahah I want so many things, and even more, with my whole being, i don't want them to end up as just dreams. Part of me can't wait to rush forward and see what the future holds, while the other part wants to soak up every part of the present. So this is me, uncensored for the most part. Oh and if you didn't know, I want to basically be the white, female version of Tyler Perry. That man is genius! peace.